Loneliness in pregnancy
I remember the day my husband and I decided we were ready for a baby…it was such a surreal feeling it’s like we were leaving one season and entering a new one that we didn’t know much about because well…marriage had made know we knew nothing about it and our approach to having children was almost the same. I have shared about my fibroids and how complicated they made my pregnancy, but the funny thing was we didn’t even know I had them as we got ready to have a baby. 2 months later I felt bloated, I thought I had not eaten enough veggies so I upped them and also had paw and then laxatives but lo and behold….we were pregnant! Ok I was pregnant😬. I was excited and scared but mostly excited. I started planning on what to buy where I would buy them, baby names etc but the surprising thing was one day I woke up and felt lonely.
i was pregnant with my 2 cousins and they were there for me but somehow I felt alone. My husband even started working from home because I had severe pains from the fibroids degenerating but I felt lonely on many days. It actually felt like I was Shedding my past and now starting a new chapter into the unknown. So I started taking walks, getting out to meet people but most importantly I started embracing my new life. Accepting my new season was key because it was going to help me in the future. Hunging on to the past wasn’t going to help, feeling like I was leaving people behind wasn’t helping. I wanted all those who got married around the same time as me to also be pregnant and walk this journey with me. But it wasn’t going to happen. I woke up and told myself that I was in a new season, a season I wanted to be in and I was going to love it!